Random thoughts

Tomorrow is the big day of the scans and I am nervous. The chances of Steven having cancer after just finishing chemo seem to be almost impossible. But if it were impossible, the docs wouldn't scan him and expose him to more radiation, so clearly it could happen. It seems so unlikely, but if he did have cancer, it would be very bad. So maybe that is why I can't relax tonight.

Steven had a fabulous time in Yellowstone. I will post some pictures and details about that soon. The weather cooperated for the most part and so did the little kids. Steven had the most energy of all of us--not wanting to miss a thing. By the end, most of the kids were done with geysers, but not Steven--he was interested until the very end. He was happier than we had seen him since this started--totally in his element. I had to keep that in mind so that I could handle the trip--I was getting grumpy by the end. I had to remind myself that this was Steven's trip to make up for so many lost opportunities throughout the year and to celebrate life. And truly the beauty all around was such a glorious reminder of how wonderful it is to be alive.

This morning we went to the hospital bright and early for his first appointment of the week--this time with a dermatologist. When Steven lost his hair, we noticed a mole that looks a little funny and I decided that the first thing we would do when treatment is over is to get it off. I kind of expected to have to convince the doctor to take it off--I was prepared to be firm. But she didn't need to be talked into it--she gave me some good reasons to take it off and then said, "But I don't want you to worry about this--this is probably nothing." Oh boy! I wasn't worried until she said that! She told me that osteosarcoma patients have a higher risk for melanoma. Is that true? I've been looking on the internet and can't really find anything. Anyway, he will get it off sometime in the next few weeks--after his scans.

My sister has scans this week, too. The stress seems a little excessive--how did they get on the same scan schedule anyway? I know that lots of prayers are heading to heaven this week on our behalf. I just hope that God will see some families in desperate need of peace and health and time together. Is that too much to ask?