Friday, January 9, 2015

3 years post treatment


Getting scans near your birthday is a bit risky, but I scheduled Steven's for today without thinking.  Thankfully, they looked good, and we are thrilled.  Each one he passes, I just feel a bit more secure that the cancer is gone for good.  It's true and it's not true--I watched cancer sneak up on my little sister just when she was done with scans and done with worry.   But still, even if we are biding time, at the very least we have six more glorious months without cancer fear.

That is, cancer fear for Steven.  All week I've been a nervous wreck.  Alisa had scans also this week and learned that her cancer is growing despite the treatment she has been taking.  It is a devastating blow and the combination of scanxiety for both of them and bad news for her has been rough.  But nothing compared to what she is going through.

Yikes.  Cancer, I hate it.  For me it inspires fear like almost nothing else can.  And sometimes the fear is crippling. I think it is part of my challenge to go forward and overcome this fear and go forward with faith that things will somehow work out.  That is a whole lot easier to write than to do.

7 comments:

  1. I'm with you...cancer produces fear and anxiety like none other! I am so thrilled that Steven is doing so well! By the way, I loved the Christmas card! Thank you so much! It was a bright spot in the day to see how great you are all doing. My kids didn't even recognize Steven! Hang in there with all your family has going on...always in my thoughts and prayers.

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  2. Cancer really is the worst. I'm so glad you got good news from Steven's scans. We continue to pray for Alisa. She is so tough, as are you!

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  3. That is great news Sonja. I'm so happy to hear that his scans are clear. We are all praying for Alisa.

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  4. I am so happy that he is doing so well. You and your family are always in my prayers and heart. You are a dear friend, Sonja, and I love you! Alisa is lucky to have you for a big sister. We will keep praying for all of you.

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  5. Thanks for the updates. The kids always enjoy seeing that Steven is doing well!!

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  6. The way you cope with fear and troubles is inspiring, Sonja. We haven't stopped praying for Steven, and we are so happy about clear scans.

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